...being great

I haven't posted anything in awhile, but I have recently found the energy and time to put some coherent thoughts together:)

As I think back to all of my experiences with people, both professionally and personally, I start to wonder, is there a formula for being "great?" For being excellent in all that you do...an excellent wife, an excellent mom, an excellent teacher, CEO, police officer...an excellent friend, or brother/sister. Does being great mean perseverance, is it intelligence, is it determination, passion, or is it all of the above? I always challenge myself to be great at whatever I put my mind to, and when I don't feel I quite measure up to my standards (or others), I question my abilities or my ambitions. I think of many individuals who I have had the privilege of working with or becoming friends with over the years, and some of those individuals, they challenge me to try harder in life - by inspiring greatness- whether it is excelling in a career with integrity and character, or enduring a very difficult life-threatening disease with the best attitude, it challenges me to think about my life and how I would handle each situation.

The key, in my opinion to finding greatness, is surrounding yourself with those who are, and trying to become someone who you are proud to be.

what if...

As I get older, life tends to get more complicated, more obscure, but more literal at the same time. Jobs hold more weight because there are more bills, you start trying to plan for the future and retirement, rather than just a month in advance, and you start thinking of baby names and deciding when you should start a family. As life advances, so do the questions, fears, and unknowns. As a woman, my fears are common...aging, losing loved ones, finding balance in life, keeping God primary, financial stability, being a wife who my husband is proud of, being a good mom, praying that I am a mom....

I find that worrying or letting these fears dictate my future is not healthy nor is it wise. Giving these fears to God is freeing - it allows me to release the unknowns that I wish to control and that is when I find myself face down, knees to the floor, praying that God would do what he wants in my life. For those of you who know me, this is difficult. I like to keep control in my life, to succeed at whatever I put my mind to, to fulfill my goals and dreams. I realize that no matter how hard we strive for our goals and dreams, there are some dreams in life where God takes control, and for me, that is hard to understand. But I have set my heart and my mind to let God take control of my fears, of my dreams, and I know that God has His best for my life. If life had gone as I had planned, I would not have the opportunity to be in this very moment, this marriage, this life...so I am so thankful that God's plan is always better.

Love...

I am in love with my husband..

he is a leader
he is a good friend
he loves me unconditionally
he brings me flowers
he helps me wash dishes
he helps me clean
he takes out the trash
he makes me dinner
he leads our home spiritually
he is loyal
he is kind
he is slow to anger
he is dependable
he is handsome
he loves his family
he provides for our family
he kisses really good:)
he makes me laugh
he makes me cry (in a good way)
he prays for me
he is my best friend...

i am more in love with him today than the day i married him...

What is your legacy?

Recently, I have known many people that have had to face the "C" word...cancer. Many of them were not directly connected to me, but through friends or extended family. I have really wrestled with the not only the idea of cancer, but who this disease is affecting within my circle of friends.

Just two months ago, I attended a viewing for Christy DePriest Wright who had passed away from cancer at the age of 24. Her life seemed to be completely devoted to the Lord, in fact, her and her husband had planned to become missionaries to China. Her joy of life and love for God radiated through her entire life...anyone who met her knew that she had a relationship with Him. So, as humans, our immediate question is "why?" While I don't think we will ever know the true reasons here on earth, God knows. In the week before Christy's death, she called two of Nick and I's friends and asked them to be pall-bearers in her funeral. She was in good spirits despite what the next few days would bring. What a testimony. On the day that Christy passed, her mom came in to say that she probably wouldn't make it through the day because of complications with her lungs. Christy just looked at her and said, "I get to go to heaven now?" I can't say that I would have that peace, that I wouldn't be angry or frustrated, but she was. Her testimony, even though I didn't know her that well, has influenced my life so many times...times when I get frustrated about insignificant life events, or when I seem to be too negative, I think of her strength, her faith, and how her life was cut short, and she praised God even then.

Even though Christy's life was cut short, her memories, her testimony, and her life will influence so many for eternity. I hope that I am able to leave a legacy for future generations that will point others towards Christ...as Christy did in her short 24 years on this earth.

life's little lessons...

As I wrote in my previous blog, I was greatly anticipating how much fun this past weekend would be, especially going to Easton and spending time with my family and husband. And it was very fun, up until yesterday, well last night to be more specific. Many of you know that my parents live on a small lake and so my parents, nick, my grandpa, and Becca decided to take a boat ride. It was quite warm yesterday and Nick decided to jump in...

Somehow, which I still have yet to figure out, his wedding ring fell off his hand and is now laying in the bottom of that lake. The tears immediately starting filling my eyes as I thought of how much that ring meant to me, and all of the memories that were attached to that piece of metal as we began our journey together as husband and wife. I felt that I had to leave behind a piece of me, a piece of us, and a piece of my heart. I told Nick that was a very expensive swim...:)

I couldn't help but think of how often we place value in things and not people, and how God can teach us lessons in the moments we least expect it in order for us to learn. I truly do believe that everything happens for a reason...instead of causing frustration in our marriage because of the situation, it was an opportunity for us to grow and learn that no matter what happens in this life..for richer or poorer, in sickness or in health, with wedding rings or without, we have each other.

So we now begin another search of finding the perfect wedding ring for the second time...and hopefully the last.

easton bound!

Back in my college days, a bunch of us girls (Bethany, Gretchen, Rach, Hamil, Lisa, and Melissa ) would all head to Easton in Columbus, OH for an evening out. These trips became some of my best memories at Cedarville University. We would head straight to the Cheesecake factory and then do some much needed shopping. Easton represents a place where good memories were always made...and now, 9 years later, I am heading back with my hubby and family to create more wonderful memories. I just love how life brings you full circle to the places we love to be.

Dreams coming true...

I have said before that I am so overwhelmed at how God orchestrates timing and certain events that happen in life. This week was one of those times. For several years now, I have had dreams of teaching online, and yesterday that dream became a reality. As silly as it sounds, during the training, I nearly teared up as I was learning about the curriculum and the logistics of the online system. Sometimes it is hard to avoid the emotion that comes with finding yourself in a place in life that you have prayed so hard for, and have now been given. This online teaching job is a stepping stone for me as I begin a new phase of life...a phase where hopefully I will have the privilege of having children, and being home with them as much as possible. It feels as though dreams and goals are unfolding before my eyes, and that is not only encouraging but it makes me want to tell everybody that God truly answers prayers.

I encourage you to continue to pray often, to pray frequently and know that God not only hears them, he is longing to have those prayers answered.

Transition...a way of life

So...after completing two master's degrees, getting married, moving to Ohio, and getting two new jobs, I thought I would now have some time to do some blogging:) I guess I am already in withdrawal of writing paper after paper and need some kind of communicative outlet!

These past few months have brought a lot of change to my life...which I like to believe comes naturally for me. Although, the magnitude of change has overwhelmed me at times, I am so thankful for how God has shown His faithfulness and His perfect timing. I cannot begin to say how many times I have said to my husband, "I can't believe how perfect the timing of the phone call for a job, an interview, or even a renter for our condo" has been for us. God has taught me so many lessons...about having faith in uncertain situations...trusting that God's timing is perfect...and being thankful for any outcome.

So, in conclusion, I am so thankful for the life God has provided, even if it is in a small town called Lima, OH :)