The last time I wrote, I had just found out about you...I didn't know it was you at that point, but I knew that I had a life...your life...inside of me. The past two weeks I have had the privilege of being your mom. Despite the lack of sleep, hundreds of diaper changes, uncertainties of mommyhood, pain of childbirth, and the crazy recovery, I am YOUR mom. I never knew that I could love someone so much until I met you. The first time you looked at my face, I instantly felt so much love, responsibility, and joy...it completely overwhelmed me.
I want to share with you a message that your grammy wrote to me - one day, I will share this with you...
A daughter is one of the greatest blessings one could ever have
She begins her life loving and trusting you automatically
And for many years, you are the center of her life...
Together you experience the delights of the new things she learns and does
You enter into her play and are once again young
And even though it's harder to enter into her world as she becomes a teen
You are there, understanding her dilemmas and her fears
And wishing with all your heart that she didn't have to go through them
A daughter's smile is a precious sight that you treasure each time you see it
And the sound of her laughter always brings joy to your heart
Her successes mean more to you than your own
And her happiness is your happiness
Her heartaches and disappointments becomes yours, too
Because when she isn't okay, you can't be okay, either
Daughters aren't perfect but you, Daughter, come close
You have given me more happiness than you know
I am thankful for your kindness and thoughtfulness
And I am proud of who you are and how you live your life
Words can't express how much you mean to me or how much I love you
The love goes too deep, and the gratitude and pride I feel are boundless
Thank you for blessing my life in so many ways
December 5, 2011 is the day I met you, Ella Joy Myles...and I love you with all of my heart.