As I get older, life tends to get more complicated, more obscure, but more literal at the same time. Jobs hold more weight because there are more bills, you start trying to plan for the future and retirement, rather than just a month in advance, and you start thinking of baby names and deciding when you should start a family. As life advances, so do the questions, fears, and unknowns. As a woman, my fears are common...aging, losing loved ones, finding balance in life, keeping God primary, financial stability, being a wife who my husband is proud of, being a good mom, praying that I am a mom....
I find that worrying or letting these fears dictate my future is not healthy nor is it wise. Giving these fears to God is freeing - it allows me to release the unknowns that I wish to control and that is when I find myself face down, knees to the floor, praying that God would do what he wants in my life. For those of you who know me, this is difficult. I like to keep control in my life, to succeed at whatever I put my mind to, to fulfill my goals and dreams. I realize that no matter how hard we strive for our goals and dreams, there are some dreams in life where God takes control, and for me, that is hard to understand. But I have set my heart and my mind to let God take control of my fears, of my dreams, and I know that God has His best for my life. If life had gone as I had planned, I would not have the opportunity to be in this very moment, this marriage, this life...so I am so thankful that God's plan is always better.
Excellent Post Good Lady.
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